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what the fuck?

2009-06-07T18:48:00.000-07:00

there was a time i was happy. i reminisce about it coming up with only fleeting memories of inconsequential family moments or instances of true wonder and novelty. no more. those days are gone it seems. or is it even seemingly so? what if they really are gone? blah blah blah. i write this thinking i'll come up with some enlightened thought, but the truth is I'm not even sure I have any great thoughts left in me.

i'm depressed. the lexapro isn't working or maybe I'm not giving it a chance to work. I'm only truly happy when i'm miserable. why is that?

i'm trying to muster up the courage to start working on a tv pilot. i want to call it "nuclear". i dunno. i'm scared to start writing because i'm scared it will suck, and i put undo pressure on myself to produce something truly great. i think i might be scared of success.

been a while...

2007-11-02T09:12:00.002-07:00

okay, a bit longer than a while since I've written. with congressional gay scandals, presidential trash talking, interest rate cuts and a myriad of west coast wild-fire it's difficult to find anything truly interesting in my life to speak of. it all seems so trivial.

hmmmm....

i've been suffering from allergies. badly. as soon as the weather changed i felt like my head was about to explode at any minute catapulting an amalgam of goo and infection in every which way. snot shrapnel. gross, i know. truth be told, i'd rather than happen than having to suffer from the incessant congestion and nose-blowing action. poor me, right?

i saw bishop allen on the 24th of october at club deville. they rocked my face off! so rad. i love those guys. lindsey saw them the next day in dallas and her friend julie sang with them! it's on youtube. that's big time. i'm sure you'll agree.

went to the food & wine festival last weekend with riki, david and my mom in fredericksburg. it was such nice weather and you can't beat eating free food while getting sloshed on various merlots, chardonnays and muscats. there was a muscat canelli that my mom really favored. REALLY favored. drunk mom. ah, good times.

spending this weekend house/dog sitting for riki and for david. back at my old stomping ground, the riata.

i've got a great opportunity coming up but i don't want to speak about it until i know for sure. sort of superstitious that way.

The race is on...

2007-05-29T06:49:00.000-07:00

I've recently discovered something about the nature of people. I mean, I guess I always knew this but never really processed it or became upset about it until recently.

Out. Late. Drinking. With people. There was some lamenting over a lost love. A recent breakup. I'm uncertain of the relationship's length or seriousness, but there was a heart broken nevertheless.

Now, we've all (unless you're incredibly, miraculously fortunate) experienced a painful breakup. I bet there are plenty of us that have felt as if we could literally die from the hurt of separation not to mention the added stress of trying to work out finances and living situations if the union in question was marriage or a partnership. It certainly makes it that much more difficult..but I wouldn't say it necessarily makes it worse. Others may disagree..but harder and worse are not always synonymous in my book.

Back to the evening to which I was referring...

Poor guy. Upset. Drowning his sorrows. I think the last thing he needs is for someone else to tell him they had it worse. They had the expensive wedding which is now an embarrassment. They had their life planned. They had to quit things that were important to them because they could no longer afford them. You get the point.

It's as if we're in a race to finish the most miserable.

Why? I'm not saying the fore mentioned repercussions aren't terrible. I am saying, though, that we aren't capable of measuring the magnitude of heartache...which is the real issue. The additional incidences that come with a breakup are nothing to sneeze at, but it doesn't make someone who didn't incur these additional stresses any less hurt because they didn't.

The loss of someone you once shared a meaningful, emotional bond with (in addition to the bond itself) is something that no one should be made to think of flippantly or be forced to measure comparatively. It hurts. Period.

Pains of the heart are not circumstantial and should never be gauged in such a manner.

rad

2007-05-26T09:47:00.000-07:00

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Amen, brother!

2007-05-23T09:14:00.000-07:00

Or perhaps it's a remnant of the careless Boomer worldview, that
all-American, use-it-before-it's-gone attitude that spins on an axis of a
truly horrible irony: The more we learn of our desperate environmental
straits, the more we learn of dwindling oil reserves and the more we learn
that our shiny happy United States might not be the responsible,
beneficent global superpower we once dreamed it was, the more we say
"screw it" and grab onto the last gasp of pleasurable excess and vice no
matter the future repercussions, telling ourselves we might as well enjoy
that stupid, chromed-out three-ton GMC Yukon Denali before the oil runs
out and the terrorists eat my babies and the damn liberals change the laws
and make us all drive Smart cars to the Tofu Hut in order to turn us all
gay. Sound familiar?

Wednesday, May 23, 2007 (SF Gate)
Rejoice, The Hummer Is Dead/It might be the end of the world's most phallically sad SUV. But has the damage been done?
By Mark Morford, SF Gate Columnist

Read the whole thing: The original article can be found on SFGate.com here: HUMMER

no more.

2007-05-07T05:59:00.000-07:00

i'm a dreamer.
i've always been a dreamer.
i will always be a dreamer.

some dreams are quaint and quickly within reach.
others are grandiose and fantastical.
i tend to invest more time in the latter.
if you're going to dream, dream big, right?

recently i've been catching myself censoring my dreams.
no more.

one shouldn't have to censor their dreams.
isn't that the great thing about them?
there is no limit to the scope of a dream.

there is, sadly, a limit on the amount of support of it.
belief in it.

it is difficult to muster up the courage to pursue a dream you really want when you are the sole believer that it one day will come true.
i guess that means i'll be the sole benefactor of its blessings and rewards.
sad.

i refuse to allow others to be fair weather supporters, if you will. it's the times when one is furthest away from a dream that he or she needs the most support.

if someone surpresses them and doesn't support your dreams now, how can you expect them to support them and you when they come true?

you can't.

no more.

cynic...

2007-04-30T06:33:00.001-07:00

i was recently telling a friend of mine that i'm emersed in cynicism today. i'm uncertain if it's because it is monday or if it's the murky dismal weather (which i normally enjoy, actually). perhaps it's the combination.

i always tend to get caught in a perception of stagnation. a depression as well. i let things get to me. i literally upset myself thinking about the state of the world. i can manage to ruin my own day in a matter of minutes just by thinking about how i wish things were and how bothered i am that more young people are so apathetic about societal disfuctions. civic-mindedness is waning. i could be wrong, but i thinking i'm not.

i don't think there is anything wrong with idealism. realism is good, too. it's when you try to mesh the two that muddies the water. i try to balance the two..but it's hard. but, just because something is hard doesn't mean it's worth giving up on. it's because it's hard that one shouldn't. i think that's true for everything. work, life...love. *sigh* yeah, been feeling a bit lonely these days as well. okay, not a bit...a lot. i'm attracted to confidence. i think other people are as well. i'm normally quite resolved and comfortable. lately, i've been dragging myself down, getting down on myself. i can't stand that! someone, please snap me out of it. really. i suppose it's a feeling of worth. i mean, i like myself but that's not who/what others necessarily value. worth is relative.

anyway, back to the point. i'm confused as to where i want to go. i'm not unhappy at this point..just not content. i suppose the most germane word would be uneasy. i'm uneasy with the world and where i am in it. i wish i could do more, make more of a change. i wish we valued each other more than our money. i wish we lived in a society that touched more. affection is so nice but we seem to shy away from it out of fear of misinterpretation, I guess. i'm a hugger. i like to hug people. it doesn't mean i want to sleep with them. one of my favorite things was the time i was in europe and people greeted each other with kisses on the cheek regardless of sex. it was refreshing to see people not reticent to show affection. why are we so guarded here? i did meet a wonderful group of huggers on friday night. that was soooo great. it's just, i dunno, sweet. it makes me feel...valued.

anyway, enough of the pity party. just had to vent a bit.

F'ing great!

2007-04-23T13:04:00.001-07:00

asian chicken salad

2007-04-17T17:01:00.001-07:00

That time in my life..

2007-04-16T11:02:00.000-07:00

there was a time, a while back, when a solitary life was a thing of the past for me. i thought.

now I have it.

i've dated. had a boyfriend or two.

single again.

i like it. i was too young to know for sure who i wanted for the rest of my life.

now, i think i would know for sure.

i'm happy dating. that is, if i did it that much. i don't.

not forcing it, though..just letting things happen as they will.

living by myself lends itself to a lot of pondering.

i like the freedom.

having trouble getting used to the solitude.

it's not that I don't like it..it's just odd.

making me realize what i want at this point in my life.

i do definitely know now that i want a family.

this doesn't necessarily mean kids. it could, though.

i'm satisfied with good man, good dog(s).

but..now, more than ever, it seems, the 'good man' is what i really need.

what i really want.

he would be next to me in bed. i wouldn't even have to be cuddling with him..his heavy, steady breath as he sleeps will suffice.

i come home and he's there. doing whatever..but stops everything to greet me, genuinely happy I'm home even if he's on his way out to hang with friends. i do think it's important to have our own hobbies, interestes, lives, etc..and there certainly are things we can do together..but we wouldn't have to have one of those relationships where we do everything together all the time. i don't think any relationship can handle that.

or i'd be home when he got there and i'd do the same.

we'd have comfortable silences, happy just being.

great conversations, too. a happy medium.

he'd challenge me. intellectually, physically, sexually.

i wouldn't get caught up in my own hubris. no pride in a relationship like ours. we're both capable of admitting when we're wrong. we're not afraid of the phrases "i'm sorry" or "you're right".

we'd let everything else fall to the wayside. all of our worries, stresses.

of course, we'd be each other's support system. but we wouldn't let the struggles of daily life interfere with our time, together.

we'd be open books for each other. no reservations, no secrets. utter honesty.

sounds pretty great.

i'll have one of those.

genuine joe's

2007-04-12T05:53:00.000-07:00

new coffee spot.
up north.
genuine joe's.

i went to meet someone i met...on myspace. ben.
he's cool. just the right age. established. good job. amitious. man, is he ambitious. matter-of-fact. resolved.
good ingredients. i can see us being great friends.
will that happen?
dunno.
doesn't matter. we had coffee. there's always that.
i'm in love with people. meeting them. knowing them. embracing them.
it's my new tv show...my life. neat.

still loooove spiderhouse..but genuine joe's is nice if you feel like staying up north. w anderson. just shy of burnet. 2001 to be precise.

chai latte. delicious. creamy. comforting. chai latte.

lindsey comes next week. joshua radin is playing. the parish. 4/19. 8pm. get tickets. go. enjoy. love. share. repeat.

thank you, purple robe guy looking all metallica chic.

2007-04-10T09:44:00.000-07:00

early this morning.
out on my balcony.
coffee.

corpulent, average-looking 9-5 slaves are getting in their SUVs.
i'm bored with the show.
out walks guy. guy sports long hair half-way pulled into a ponytail. guy is clothed in nothing but a purple robe. guy has little, fluffy, yappy dog. guy calls dog something like "fee fee" or "petunia".

thank you, purple robe guy looking all metallica chic for keeping it real...for being purple robe guy.

be my friend.

i wore converse to work today..

2007-04-09T06:15:00.000-07:00

even though it's more than likely completely inappropriate.

I don't see why it should be, though. A shoe is a shoe. It's not a flip-flop. You can't see the hair on my big toe. Just the green lovliness of the all-stars.

when i'm alone i...

2007-04-04T08:08:00.000-07:00

pull my nose hairs out one by one because it makes me sneeze.
i like to sneeze.

haiku: working for the weekend

2007-04-02T09:30:00.001-07:00

it's monday again.

already need the weekend.

nine to five should die.

2007-04-02T06:36:00.000-07:00

i feel i've been infected with a terminal case of stagnation..i'm just bored more than anything. i've been bored for a while now. there's something there..just not sure what it is. maybe a move? who knows. i don't think 'who knows' requires a question mark. it's rhetorical, afterall. who knows.

i made some weak coffee this morning. by accident. i still drank it. tasted like vanilla-honey water. suppose i'll need a real cup down the road when my consciousness starts waning. *note to self: must find that delicate balance between stimulants and depressants.* somewhere between the coffee and the pot is a balanced state of mental capacity . i love both too much to give up either, though. and since when is anything ever truly balanced? tipping the scales makes life interesting.

i move into my new place at the end of this week. good friday to be exact. what a good friday it will be, too. my own space. finally. it may not be much...but to me it's everything and that's all that matters. i'm not a size-whore. i'm a breathing room-whore. deep one in. deep one out. repeat.

i'm getting a peter. peter is cat. we're going to live together. he will meow. i will sing. it will be grand and proper.

i'm looking forward to monica's birthday party on saturday. i miss those kids. i hope now that i have space we'll get to hang out more. or hang in more. i think that is fun, too. spiderhouse or game night. bliss.

today's new life goal: to one day not be constrained by monday and what it means to workers all over the world.

I heart jay brannan

2007-03-30T06:52:00.000-07:00

music is my boyfriend...

2007-03-30T06:22:00.000-07:00

i wish i could take credit for that axiom. it's not mine. it's the hidden cameras'.

it's apt, though. and self-evident, obviously. i think it applies universally at least one point in all of our lives. if it doesn't, that's unfortunate.

i hope we never break up.

Currently listening to:

Madonna for H&M

2007-03-08T14:56:00.000-08:00

A typical work day...

2007-03-08T14:33:00.000-08:00

So, I'm sitting here giving the illusion that I'm working when in actuality, I'm not. I'm so fucking bored with my job. I thought it would become a lot more exciting once the legislature convened..but no.

I sit with superfluous papers in front of me that look incredibly informational and important but lack any sort of inherent value whatsoever. They're just names. Spreadsheets of names and email addresses. No one looks closely enough to realize that all of this information is more or less up to date. I led them to believe it's terribly antiquated and in need of attention. It's not.

I have taken command of the keyboard shortcut that navigates me through the windows on my monitor so when someone quickly approaches me I do not rely on a conspicuously quick tug of the mouse and a few clicks to hide the semi-pornographic website that possesses the incriminating evidence of my apathy toward my work and my disinterest in any professional ethic both mild and severe, not to mention my penchant for dick. I am sucking dry the pockets of our contributors as it is primarily their personal contributions that pay my salary. I don't mind a bit.

Myspace has miraculously made its way into my job description. Not quite sure when that happened but it has made its way to the top of the hierarchy of my professional responsibilities and obligations. I suppose I'll acquiesce.

I've mastered the art of nonverbal deception. I keenly focus my attention to my monitor any time there is someone within visual distance. My eyes become squinted, my neck angled forward forcing my head slightly closer in proximity to the "work" before me, my body rigid and stoic. It's a motionless dance the choreography of which I've written and mastered. I own the rights to it.

My internal monologue isn't dissimilar to the outlandish vulgarities muttered aloud by psychopaths and social rejects. The treasurer speaks to me about deposits and registers at length. All I hear is my own voice uttering insults and death threats. There is a smile on my face and within my eyes is the scintillation of interest. That twinkle is really a sense of euphoria knowing that with her old age she'll soon be dead. Twinkle twinkle little star...

My contempt for my boss is expressed daily with the deposit of my morning power dump in his personal, executive restroom. If the stench weren't bad enough, traces of my presence remain delicately painted at the bottom of the bowl, indicative of a hard night of drinking. To this day, he still is painfully uncertain of the culprit and enduring an indefinite state of paranoia.

The weekend approaches. Before me are just a few more hours of this guise. I wear it as if it were fitted cotton. My work shirt, so to speak.

Such is "the real world".

Web 2.0 (f'ing amazing)

2007-02-08T13:52:00.001-08:00

What to do..

2007-02-08T13:13:00.000-08:00

It's a daily struggle to get outta bed these days. You wake up and you hear about celebrities mysteriously and suddenly dying, astronauts going homicidal, sub-freezing weather attacking the nation, and the ever-present war. And this is stuff we deal with on top of our own stressful and oftentimes pain-ridden lives.

It's difficult not to become cynical about it all. I would have never imagined when I was 10, 13 even, that the world I would be living in as an adult would be so full of misery. Never.

I guess it's during times like these that you have to make it a point, your daily goal, not to focus on what is wrong but on what is right.

So, let's all think about things like great friends (you know who you are), great memories, beautiful weather and posts like the one directly below this one. ;)

DAMN...

2007-02-08T13:11:00.000-08:00

I should watch Desperate Housewives more regularly, me thinks.

As of late....

2007-02-07T14:27:00.000-08:00

things have been anything but boring. They've been dichotomous.

I've gained a year on my life, a year closer to death.
I've lost Canada. I've gained Steve.
I'm living out of a suitcase bit in a place that feels like home.
A new living situation may be coming together while certain friendships are falling apart.

I'm doing it day by day, now.

What else can you do?

Positivity is key.

I'm thankful for the beautiful weather.

Good, yet lacking, commercial..

2007-01-24T08:08:00.000-08:00

So, I was just listening to ABC news radio which has commercials every now and again. One in particular caught my attention and I had to mention something about it.

Relying on my feminist ideologies, I took the commercial in for what it was..a message about sending boys and young men the right message about men's treatment towards women. It was a satirical piece about a father telling his son to watch violent films and television shows and hanging out with the "wrong" crowd. More or less the gist of the whole thing was making sure you (the media you allow your child to be exposed to) are giving your son correct messages in regard to the treatment of women to ensure that he knows that violence against women is wrong. GREAT! I totally agree.

But, what about messages about violence toward other men? Couldn't a greater amount of violence be reduced if we don't make our messages about violence gender specific? Violence is wrong, period. Now, in regard to domestic violence, the majority of domestic violence is "wife-beating", but aren't we sending the wrong message about domestic violence here? Domestic violence is not specific to the mistreatment of women. What about the mistreatment of the elderly? What about older siblings horribly mistreating younger ones, physically? Is it less of a violence issue when a gay man physically abuses his boyfriend/partner simply because the victim is another man? Here is where we come back to the tough guise phenomenon that I think about a lot. Are we hurting our men by telling them that it is wrong to mistreat women and NOT telling them it's not okay to mistreat men because men are men and are tough? Not only does it force the tough guise on boys and young men but it also denigrates the concept of a strong woman...makes it seem all women are weak.

I don't know. Am I wrong?

Thoughts?

Where am I?

2007-01-21T14:15:00.000-08:00

Seriously.

My relationship with Austin is waning. Quite unexpectedly, in fact. I recently had quite the infatuation with this, the blue heart of the red state. Not so much anymore.

Was out today, trying to enjoy the break from torrential tundra, with Canada. As we're huffing our ways up and down the residential hills of north cat mountain we are passing middle-aged women out washing their cars, men in their garages performing woodwork and children outside (listening to their ipods, but outside nevertheless).

With a swift sense of clarity, I was sickened by it all. I, the young man walking his dog around the neighborhood! What have I become? A suburbanite? Surely not. I mean, technically, Austin isn't a suburb so that can be it. What then? One of those people. I don't even know what to call them.

I work. I go home to my lovely neighborhood. I walk my dog. I take the garbage to the curb and nod to my neighbors as they do the same.

I'm nauseas. Sickened by my...assimilation into "normal" life.

Got to get out.

Worried...

2007-01-17T16:08:00.000-08:00

I think Jason is on his way over to break up. :(

Snow Day!!!!

2007-01-16T14:18:00.001-08:00

fuck yeah...

2007-01-03T17:07:00.001-08:00

Funny feeling...

2007-01-03T13:14:00.000-08:00

So, I've been tied up with mixed emotions lately. Not about any one particular subject, but by about everything major in my life.

First of all, I'm less than thrilled with my current career endeavor. It isn't, of course, a career because I don't plan on doing what I do indefinitely. It is just so hard to get up in the morning knowing that I'm less than thrilled at what will be my final destination..the office. I'm hoping very much that I start hearing from some schools this week about jobs. It would be great to be teaching by my birthday.

Next, things are less than ideal at home. I've a feeling they won't return to "normal". Not now. It seems to late..and I'm not so sure I want them to. Therein lies the rub. I think I'm so prepared at this point in my life for a solitary existence (as far as living situations are concerned) that I'm not incredibly upset that a distance has been growing on the Cove. It's sad...but honest.

So,
*work...sucks
*home...sucks

Now, on to the counter-emotions that are necessary for "mixed" emotions. There are two aspects of my life that I adore, my friends and my boyfriend.

I'm so lucky to have such wonderful friends whom I never get bored of or tired with. They are truly great and entertaining...and helpful. Tasty.

Jason is an absolute gem. I don't know how I managed to discover him but he is..scintillating. Butterflies. Yup. Definite butterflies.

I heart SJP but look at the very bottom!! HA!

2007-01-02T14:59:00.000-08:00

HNY

2007-01-02T13:51:00.000-08:00

So, I wrote this really great and awe-inspiring post yesterday but somewhere during publishing it got fucked up...so, here is today's not so awe-inspiring do-over.

Well, it was a rad time. 2006 ended with Lacey passing out, Riki doing shots of bourbon and me catching on fire. Loco.

Today has sucked, for the most part. I couldn't sleep last night and so far haven't the energy at all to pursue one of my most important resolutions..working out. Of course that is everyone's resolution and who actually sticks to it? The only reason I even am willing to do it this time is b/c we're going to Carnivale in February and I have to look good (partly because I'm going to be next to naked). Yeah.

Also, I'm going to work at actually accomplishing one of my lofty goals..writing a book. I'm looking at finding a lit agent but the actual work in finding one is almost as extensive as writing the damn book in the first place. Geez. I really want to do it, though.

Planning on having dinner with Jason tonight. He's cooking. Yum. He's yum, too.

Well, back to work. Riki hasn't been getting any of my emails all day. Poo. Poo on that. Decided I'm not going skiing with her and David in February. No funds. Oh well.

Peace out '06!!!

2006-12-31T16:49:00.000-08:00

Goooooooooooooood riddance! That's right, I said it. This was probably the worst year of my life..but you know what...it came to a wonderful close. Don't let the man keep ya down, ya know? And, I haven't. I've made wonderful strides this year. I've only gotten closer with my friends and have met a man that no words can describe appropriately..he is so good to/for me!

Thanks, Riki, for being my pillar of strength this year. I only hope I have been able to adequately return the favor. It's been a tough one for us..but, dammit, 2007 is going to be the best!!

Lacey, thanks for the laughter and the ever-growing friendship. I'm so blessed to have been introduced to you and Aaron!! You guys are the best! I heart my Hotsumomo!!

Lindsey Rae, what can I say? ANOTHER year of fabulousness! Geez, you realize that's 19 years down...a lifetime to go! I LOVE YOU!!!

I LOVE ALL OF MY GIRLS!!!

Jason, Jasonna, Baby Jesus...you truly are one of the most genuine and good-hearted men I have ever met and I am incredibly grateful to have in my life. You are a great way to end one year and start another.

Okay..well, g'bye 2006! It was one of the hardest for many..but turned out pretty well thanks to my friends!!

On to 2007...

Tis the season...

2006-12-14T16:44:00.000-08:00

for fun! I've been going non-stop lately! Been working a lot, been sick a lot (found out it's just allergies..wish I would have known that a LOT sooner), been drinking a lot! Ye-ah. Oh yeah..and I started saying "Ye-Ah". You have to hear me say it to understand the hyphen. It's in a little baby gansta voice, too! On special days.

Well..work is work. I'm in the process of looking for teaching jobs. I've applied at three different elementary schools. It's only been a week so I'm hoping I'll hear something before the year is over. Fingers crossed. I want to be in the classroom SO bad! Teaching, this time!

Like I said, I've been really sick. Spent the better part of two weeks feeling like SHIT before I realized it's just my allergies! DUH! I always forget it's allergies b/c I only get them around the holidays. So, I popped a pill an antihistamine and BAM..I'm better. At first I thought I was sick from kissing on him...

BUT, I was wrong. So..kiss on! Yay!

His name is Jason. He is fabulous!!! We've been dating for a little while and "official" for a few weeks. We have SO much fun together!!

At any rate, he's a good fit. Really good to me. Think I'll keep him for a while.. :)

Happy Holidays :)

2006-12-08T13:23:00.000-08:00

Elf Yourself

Cutie!

2006-11-23T10:14:00.000-08:00

Cutie!

2006-11-22T22:27:00.000-08:00

So cute!

Look-a-likes..

2006-11-21T12:38:00.000-08:00

Canada

2006-11-19T09:19:00.000-08:00

She's ready for christmas!

Great guy...

2006-11-18T17:29:00.000-08:00

So, last night I had an amazingly wonderful time.

I went out with this guy I met named Jason. He is the sweetest guy!!

We met at his place then went to get a bite at NxNW. Had few beers
and then went to the movies to see Casino Royale, the new James Bond
movie. After that we went back to his place and watched the Grey's
Anatomy episode of Oprah.

He is SO genuine and easy to talk to. We have A LOT in common which
is almost unnerving. He wears these super cute glasses and is VERY
attractive.

I have not had a night that great in a long time.

I can't wait to see him again!

Shut up and Sing

2006-11-06T21:52:00.000-08:00

Timing, irony and coincidence...

2006-11-05T20:46:00.000-08:00

This last week has been a cosmic joke on a temporal scale. On one hand, I'm saddened..on the other, I'm anxious to a point of being juvenile. In the middle..just complacent, really. With the new week beginning, it's all just sort of introspective at this point.

Timing: I found out that something I thought I had, I didn't. In the end, it doesn't matter because, due to an unexepected situation, I can't do what I wanted to anyway.

Irony: Something I have truly resolved that I want is the exact thing my roommate doesn't and exactly what she has. In the end.. she will be rid of it and I'll never see it.

Coincidence: Recent communicative encounters resulted in a timely sighting at a most unexpected time that neither parties can attest to because it was only known after the fact.

I wish I could go into these matters of minutes but if I did..they wouldn't have any value to me anymore.

They're mine..until the end of time, oddly enough.

McGrey's Anatomy

2006-10-25T10:29:00.000-07:00

The ONE Campaign

2006-10-25T09:14:00.000-07:00

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Commercialism and Sex (two of my favorite things)

2006-10-23T16:46:00.000-07:00

Dancing Kitty

2006-10-23T16:34:00.000-07:00

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2006-10-16T21:51:00.000-07:00

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TEDTalks : Sir Ken Robinson (2006)

2006-10-13T06:51:00.000-07:00


Sir Ken Robinson is author of Out of Our Minds: Learning to be Creative, and a leading expert on innovation and human resources. In this talk, he makes an entertaining (and profoundly moving) case for creating an education system that nurtures creativity, rather than undermining it. (Recorded February 2006 in Monterey, CA. Duration: 20:03) - More TEDTalks at http://www.ted.com

I wanted to say...

2006-10-03T20:26:00.000-07:00

that I have nothing to say...of any consequence that will result in an earth-shattering, vascular beat-skipping culmination of unadulterated enthrallment and utter core shaking, but....I have a new found predilection for dairy.

I know. I was just as shocked. I love to have a lovely glass of milk in the evenings before bed as an ederly Ebenezer character might, and a small bowl of cottage cheese in the mornings. With peaches on special days. I love the pure white glisten of yogurt just befoe I assimilate it with blueberry granola and raisins..the white kind. It's lovely and spectacular and playful in my belly.

So, speaking of tasty treats...I spent the evening with my former school chums but eternal witty banderists and cultural peers, Kat and Monica. Yup..Michie and the Corona. Yay! It was a glorious reunion. Enough anecdotes to be entertaining and an adequate amount of gossip to be genuinely human. Filthy gorgeous, I'd say. I miss my pals. I miss their stimulating, clever minds and gregarious and amicable personalities. Their endearing nerdiness and musical existance. I heart you girls. I HEART YOU GIRLS, DAMMIT!

Well, I suppose I had better go get some rest. My muscles are aching and my vagina hurts. Well, if I had a vigina, that's where it would hurt. Spinning. Ouch. It sucks awesome.

K...night night.

Interesting....

2006-04-30T00:43:00.000-07:00

Had a absolute blast today!!

I went to work (I picked up a saturday lunch shift..eek) which was really busy and great b/c I made great money. Then went to Paige's to hang out with her and Nicole for a while before we headed over to Scotty's for his annual Crawfish Boil!! It was so great! A lot of people from work were there and so were PJ and Kristi! I spent a lot of the evening with PJ and Kristi which was really awesome! They are such great people and I'm so glad I met them through Kim. We are going to have some much fun on our double dates!!

Then, around midnight we left and I took Paige and Nicole downtown so they could party some more. I, on the other hand, went to the 21st Street CoOp to help celebrate my friend Diana Digges' birthday! I haven't seen her in literally 5 years and her little sister called me (who I worked with in high school) and said she was in town for Di's b-day so I went and met them. It was cool. Chilling, talking about shit from years ago and just chillin (all in a CoOp setting...which was pretty gross, actually). I didn't stay long b/c I felt dirty and I had to come check on the dog so here I am at 2:45am just now sitting down since I got up this morning! Been a greeeeeeat day!

Really bored...

2006-04-30T00:42:00.000-07:00

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The trouble with bettering yourself is...

2006-04-18T05:25:00.000-07:00

that you lose out on a lot while you're doing it! I'm referring to school in this instance.

I have very good friends who feel quite content with their bachelor's degrees and have gone on to become successful worker bees who lead very prolific social lives. I, on the other hand, have been typing my fingers to the bone, squinting hours upon hours at my computer, working my ass off to make ends meet and resisisting the urge to sleep.

The result: I feel no better about my state of "higher, higher" education and I MISS MY FRIENDS!!! Thank whatever we all only have one more year to go and a psuedo free summer to spend with each other! Too bad we'll all probably be moving when this next scholastic year is over. :(

At any rate, I'm looking forward to spending time with the people I care about this summer while still working my ass off so I can play!!

Only 2 weeks left...only 2 weeks left..only 2 weeks left...

ugh....down w/losers...

2006-03-25T23:00:00.000-08:00

so, paige called me tonight in a state of raging tears. How is it that such great people get involved deeply with such losers? I dunno. I'm still working on the answer to that one myself. At any rate...they are 100% over and now she can begin moving on. Good for her! Who better to help her, right? If ever two people were in the same boat. I wish I could give her a big ole hug right now, but she is away..out of town.

Ran into Amanda and Jordan tonight at Alamo Drafthouse with Kim. I feel bad b/c they are having another party and I can't go b/c I have to work...oh well.

Anywho...haven't posted in a while...just a snippet until other insights arise.....

Historically gay...

2006-03-05T03:48:00.000-08:00

So i was working on a paper for my homosexual culture class regarding same-sex representations of love in English literature from the Elizabethan era to the Restoration. There were a LOT of gays back then! This guy Antonio Rocco wrote this erotically charged novel about a teacher seducing his youthful student entitled "Alcibiades the Schoolboy" in 1652!! It was blatantly dirty and gay!! I love it!

Several of Shakespeare's sonnets were homosexual and homosocial in nature. I had no idea that Bill was even thought to be gay. Apparently so.

There is a play that is actually a satirical commentary of Charles II decisions regarding the national religion but its message is conveyed through a homosexually based plot with characters whose names are actual slang names for genitalia that we use today!! Like cunt! Too funny.

Ah, the gays. They're like cockroaches. No pun intended.

Some poetry...

2006-03-04T07:26:00.000-08:00

From "Alcibiades the Schoolboy" (the first gay novel)

Abandoning skulduggery
The Greeks invented buggery;
They found supernal joys
In shafting pretty boys.

So never shove your punt-pole
Into a sweaty cunt-hole;
'Tis sweeter far to come
In some exquisite bum.

Austin....

2006-02-26T03:02:00.000-08:00

so...Austin has been good and bad to me. A lot of shit has gone down in this the heart of texas. I don't know that once I'm away from here I'll remember some of the best days of my life or some of the worst days of my life more vividly. I think I've had them both. I know I have. Variety is the spice of life.....

Where do we go from here?? Why question.

My (realistic?) Goals

2006-02-07T21:23:00.000-08:00

I want...

~The body of a gay porn star (so much hotter than straight porn stars I assure you)
~The intellect of a pulitzer prize winning author
~The wit of Augusten Burroughs/Cornell Vaughn
~The liquid assets of Oprah
~The compassion of the Dahli Llama
~The performance talent of Philip Seymour Hoffman
~The happiness of a child
~The determination of Patrice
~The confidence of a U.S soldier
~The generosity of Linda Hattersley

Confuse me??? What was that you said?

2006-01-30T14:07:00.000-08:00

Brown's salary gets a boost
1/29/2006 8:11 PM
By: Associated Press
Texas Longhorns head football coach Mack Brown is getting a raise that would put him among the highest paid coaches in college football.

School officials said Brown will receive an annual salary of at
least $2.5 million. That's according to Texas
men's Athletic Director DeLoss Dodds.

Brown won the national championship with a 41-38 Rose Bowl
victory over Southern California earlier this month.

He earned just over two million dollars this past season and
is due for another $100,000 this year as part of a
contract deal announced last year.

Stuff I've learned so far...

2006-01-30T13:38:00.000-08:00

Okay, so this being apart thing does suck giant balls, but it has turned out to be exactly what Christopher said it would be, a learning process.

I went out Saturday night for my friend Jessica's birthday and then met up with some work people at Logan's (the straightest bar in Austin). After a few drinks there and a mild bitch session with my friend Kim, we ventured over to Maggie Mae's. Hung out there a while and then our friend Dustin showed up. He claims not to be gay but now I have my doubts. At any rate, he convinces me to leave our friends and go to Fabric with him so that he can "pick up a lot of hot fag hags" so I decide to leave Kim and go with him. It was almost two afterall and my bed was close in sight.

After a few drinks there and a little dancing (yup, I danced) we went outside partly b/c they kicked us all out so they could close. Dustin ventures over to this group of gays and flat out invites him to his house to drink with us. I was all "we're going drinking at your house?" and he was all "fuck yeah!" (At this point, he still hadn't even spoken to a woman let alone picked one up) So, we went to his house (even though the other random gays didn't) and had some drinks and watched The Neverending Story. I love that movie!!! Gotta put it on my netflix. Anywho...we start listening to music and downloading songs that he wanted off of my ipod and just jammed. It started getting pretty late and he starts talking to me about all of this gay shit. Like why this other gay at work bothers him b/c he thinks he doesn't truly except who he is (hello, kettle??) and that he dresses badly and whatnot. He said that he wasn't a real gay like me and that I was his new gay best friend. I start saying I should go b/c Canada was locked up at home by herself and he just flat out tells me I should stay. I say that I can't but listen to a few more interesting songs and take a quick tour of his (rather large) house. He goes to the restroom and comes back and his shirt is unbuttoned. Not that I can't handle hanging out with a guy without his shirt on, but something told me that he was pushing something. I again said that I had to go and he asks me to stay but I left anyway. I texted him and told him that I had to go b/c I didn't want to do anything I would regret (I had told him about Christopher and me) so as not to hurt his feelings. I didn't know what else to say.

At any rate, the point of the story is:
*I can have fun if I just let go
*I now know (sort of) that other people find me attractive and that I am desirable (again, sort of..still working on this concept. I had always thought that if Christopher left me no one would ever want me again. Now I know this is wrong.) This is helping my self-esteem which had needed some work and I didn't know it until now AND
*MOST importantly, I am madly deeply in love with Christopher and want nothing more than to live happily ever after with him in my bed.

All in all, it was a good experience for me. I even stayed out until almost 7am!! That's right, I'm bad news kids.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
An intelligent man is sometimes forced to be drunk to spend
time with his fools.
-- Ernest Hemingway

A new beginning...

2006-01-28T15:24:00.000-08:00

So, it has been decided that if we are to stay together we need to take time apart. I'm not entirely thrilled about this idea but I'm willing to do anything to save this marriage.

I suppose I haven't really realized how much of my life depends on Christopher. I look to him to satisfy a lot of my needs that I could be getting elsewhere. I realize this now.

So, I must start spreading my wings by spending time with friends, making new ones. By truly discovering who I am and what I want. I thought I knew this already, but maybe I don't.

At any rate, I'm gonna find out what it is that is putting so much strain on our lives and kill it. Damn it, I'm gonna kill it.

Truly Great Work...

2006-01-27T21:51:00.000-08:00

I cannot tell you the magnitude of this film's greatness. I just can't. It was inspiring and eye-opening and thoughful. You must go experience it.

A lamentable situation...

2006-01-24T21:38:00.000-08:00

I'm taking an undergraduate class called the cultural history of homosexuality. Said class makes me sleepy. I am bored with the professor. He is overly fond of his own voice and pedantic thoughts. He uses unnecessary and lengthy words like "positionality" and overemphasizes his syllables. "Butt-Hocks". It's 'buttocks' you twit.

He wears an ascot. He fucking wears an ascot and had Donald Trumpish hair. Slightly more blonde and longer, but Trumpish nevertheless. I can't look at him. I devoutly avoid eye contact out of fear. I fear he'll assume a connection with me that doesn't exist despite our mutual, societal marginalization. Something about him feels pedophilic. He probably smirks with a sense of glee and prowess when his sister calls him to sit her young son, his nephew. Poor kid. Never again will his asshole be his own. He'll spend years in rehab I'm sure. Pills, I think, and wine not liquor will be his crutch.

Totally gay. Utterly sad.

A Haiku about Fallibility (For Roo)

2006-01-24T10:44:00.000-08:00

Although we may fall
We musn't stay down because
We can get back up.

********************
"Surrender eternity for the love I have surpasses you." -B. Spenrath

A new project

2005-12-18T14:29:00.000-08:00

I'm on a mission to reinvent myself. Amongst the countless hours of scholastic pursuits and monotonous trips back to 4 tables to see if they've had their fill of iced tea, my life has become stagnant. My marriage is suffering and my self-esteem is dwindling. I must seek out that which is my core. What it is..I'm not sure...but I'm determined to find it.

I'm bored with myself.

?

2005-12-08T12:53:00.000-08:00

This was sent to me by my 'sperm-donor' since i certainly will not call him my father:

FUCK OFF

uh oh..it's a little cold..

2005-12-08T11:30:00.000-08:00

so, let's shut down civilization!

These Texans get so scared when it comes to the cold. Big deal. Yes, it's freeeeeeeeackin cold. And yes, the roads and my car did freeze. But, we're still able to get around. Just use some caution people!!

I spent the better part of 10 minutes trying to get into my car, which was frozen shut..then a half hour defrosting the windshield and windows. After I managed to melt away the ice, I headed off to school to get some work done. The mistake: not checking my email.

Monica calls me when I'm literally on 38th turning onto Guadalupe and tells me that the university is shut down until tomorrow. WTF!? I managed to get to school...why must we shut down? Christopher said something like 7 people called into work this morning. Ridiculous if you ask me.

Ugh...stressed about this stupid plan...becoming too cynical.

yeah, I think I'm done.

2005-11-27T20:36:00.000-08:00

So, after three very gruesome days of hacking away on this darn creativity paper, I have settled at a conclusion at just shy of the required 20 pages (18 to be exact). Should I try to bullshit the extra two pages, or just give in? After reading my horoscope..I think I should just be happy with what I have.

Today's Forecast:
Sometimes in life, we have to settle for good when we really wanted great.

Ummm...yeah.

2005-11-22T20:28:00.000-08:00

Okay, I can appreciate fantasy and fairy tales...but this is disturbing.

Peter Pan's Fashion Page

Waiting for the bus...

2005-11-22T13:38:00.000-08:00

So this morning I caught the early bus so I could meet Monica and glue some stuff. While I walking to the bus stop I saw this guy like literally playing in the street with something. He was throwing it up in the air and trying to catch it on his finger. It looked like some sort of rubber ring. Anywho...when he saw me coming he obviously became embarassed and threw it into the trash right next to the bench at the stop. When I walked up to him he say "hi" to me in a small, little i'm-in-a-diabetic-coma voice ("hi"..."hi"..."hiiii"). I said hello back and then he looked right eye me...eye contact and all...and said "Ee tee doo bee doh doh." What the hell does that mean? I just politely smiled and then got on the bus that had only just arrived...thank god.

A little less stressed...

2005-11-20T19:55:00.000-08:00

Well, I feel better about things now. I think I've almost made it to the top of the hill. Hopefully by the end of the week it'll be a smooth coast to the bottom and the last day of class.

sheesh..I need to start on my creativity paper. Will definitely use the holiday to do that. Fingers crossed.

Anywho....here's to a great week. Only four more entries in my journal and I'm done! Woo hoo!!

until...

2005-11-08T14:34:00.000-08:00

A little list to help my girls prioritize. I'm sure you both are completely organized, but I needed to do it anyway. (maybe it helps to read it from the bottom to the top).

-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_-_

*1 month until the last day of class.

*5 weeks until the media plan is due.

*4 weeks and 1 day until documenting creativity is due.

*3 weeks and 6 days until the Leo Burnett case analysis is due.

*3 weeks and 1 day until the creativity final paper is due.

*2 weeks and 2 days until Thanksgiving. (be thankful for a break).

*2 weeks until the idea journal is due.

*1 week and 6 days until the Chevron case analysis is due.

*6 days until the Oscar Mayer case analysis is due.

Anybody else stressed!?!

2005-11-06T23:09:00.000-08:00

because I certainly am! Agh. I can't sleep. I have spent all day doing homework. Some research, writing, compiling, research, reading, research, what?, writing, emailing, huh?, research and highlighting! I'm sick of it. I could have spent some more time today doing something leisurely but no, I had to catch the virus that satan herself (yeah, that's right. I said her) manifested! I have spent the past two days with either my ass of my head in the toilet! I've lost 5 pounds. Not in the good way. I have never been more miserable in my life.

I'm really annoyed with school right now. I need some stress relief here, people. Any ideas?

Chi town...

2005-11-02T10:16:00.000-08:00

Millennium Park

Well, I got back from Chicago last night. Had a blast, talked some trash and couldn't always find places to put it. Chicago is really clean but I'm not sure how 'cuz we couldn't always find trash bins. Weird. Anywho...this is a pic of a piece of artwork in Millenniumm Park near the Magnificent Mile on N. Michigan Avenue.

Kat and I had a really great time and leanred a lot about breaking into the biz, but most of all we had the most fun hanging out with our new friend, Chicago. What a great town. I could see myself living there. Lots to do and great shopping too. I'm glad I went.

Here's a link to the rest of my pics.

I dunno...

2005-10-25T04:05:00.000-07:00

So, here I am at just before 6 in the morning worrying about
everything. I have so much to do for school and with no motivation to
do it, I am really starting to even wonder if I should be doing this
whole grad school thing.

I am mostly concerned about Chicago. It is keeping me up..

Christopher is worried too. He didn't tell me, but I see him every
hour or so looking at our calendar and our bills. I know he is
concerned that he isn't going to make rent in my absence. Frankly,
I'm not sure he will either. If I didn't go I could work instead and
get the bills paid...and let's face it, that is most important. Is
five days in Chicago (and only 2 at agencies) worth not paying our
bills on time and reaping the negative repercussions? I'm thinking
not. I'd hate to leave that obligation up to Christopher.

Plus, I'm still so angry about the whole meeting and everything that
the trip is pretty much already ruined in my mind. UGH. I can't stand
that Valerie chick. Really. I'm so over the whole thing.

I just wish I could wash my hands of this whole thing but I really
don't want to leave Kat going by herself basically (even though Anna,
Madeline, Chris and Alison will be there). Of course I'd still leave
her with my share of the hotel room...but I'd still feel bad about it.

I'm really upset and don't know what to do.

Disorganization!!

2005-10-24T22:51:00.000-07:00

I'm so over AGC. Kat and I are going to form to AAGC (anti-
advertising graduate council) for those who wish to join us in our
revolt.

These stupid bitches (yes, I'm angry enough to result to juvenile
name calling) couldn't organize their way out of The Container
Store!! Seriously...Kat and I almost got screwed out of seeing the
creative aspect of the agencies we are visiting in Chicago b/c the gd
president couldn't send out an email or conduct a proper meeting for
that matter.

I really can't stand the organization anymore and to be frank, I'm
still not quite certain I even want to Chicago anymore. I know it's
days away..but I could still choose not to go. I dunno...I'm just
bitter about it now.

The story is longer but my fingers would get too tired trying to type
all of that out. Tell ya as soon as I see you Monica..Kat will too.

ugh...

ha.

2005-10-23T14:41:00.000-07:00

friendster

AARP Smack Down...

2005-10-18T22:16:00.000-07:00

This is almost what Corona, Michie and I witnessed this afternoon outside of the union. This 'loud talker' came down the walk allowing the whole courtyard in on his personal telephone conversation. Apparently annoyed, an older gentleman that was chatting with another older man on a bench commented on the obnoxious loud talking directly to the l.d. himself. What was to follow made me laugh and very uncomfortable at the same time.

Old men in each other's faces about loud talking and what I think was a flipping of the bird ensued.

Crazy man, crazy.

Kudos to the old gentleman for requesting a little p&q. I tip my hat....that is, if I could sport one fashionably.

Our trip to Gruene...

2005-10-16T15:57:00.000-07:00

Today we made a lovely trip to historic Gruene, Texas for our nephew's birthday lunch at a wonderful restaurant called The Gristmill which overlooks the Guadalupe river in the Texas Hill Country. It was lovely lovely lovely lovely. I got to see Christopher's family whom I haven't seen in a while. We had a very nice lunch and a leisurely day of shopping and antiqueing. Plus we got to see our niece!! Isn't she so cute!!?? Her name is Mikayla.

random thoughts...

2005-10-12T14:50:00.000-07:00

so, i'm sitting here trying my darndest to start my paper, but i am at a loss. i have no clue how to begin. partly because i'm so totally distracted by the new ipod. that's right folks, another new ipod.

the new ipod

it has video capabilites. you know i'm gettin' it.

there's a new imac too. damn these bitches work fast.

anywho...being rebelious. not using capital letters today. like that bitch Bell Hooks. notice how i capitalized her name b/c she doesn't really in real life as some sort of social statement. whatev.

was so bored at work today and kim casey and i were trying to be dirty so we came up with euphemisms for ejaculate.

baby batter, schlong sauce, penis paste, pecker putty, willy water, johnson juice, dick dijon....etc., etc., etc.,...

you get the idea.

harmonica, your bo is really cute! yay you! can't wait 'til the six of us can go out.

bored off my ass........

Well, we're still together.

2005-10-04T21:25:00.000-07:00

After a lengthy discussion of resentment, anger, support systems, stress and hard work...we have made amends and are back on the gay track of love. (insert cinderella-like bird chirping and mouse giggles).

Yay! That's a load off.

On a darker note...

FUCK MADELINE.

"Nice bracelets."

"Oh...I know, bitch. I love 'em. I don't care that you don't. Fuck off."

{smiles}

Great commercial about women in the workforce...

2005-09-24T22:31:00.000-07:00

Of course it would be a European ad wouldn't it. Damn the man.

http://www.basementv.com/commercials/btv-com-007.html

He's a real boy!

2005-09-24T22:17:00.000-07:00

A lot of people hear me talk quite a lot about 'Christopher', yet no one has actually ever met him or seen him. WELL, just to validate my alleged "marriage"..here is a pic of us taken while we were in Munich. SEE..he's real.

Cool logo...

2005-09-22T23:09:00.000-07:00

I got this pic off another blog that was highlighting local musical talent. I wonder what they sound like? funny..

Dude, whatev...

2005-09-22T22:53:00.000-07:00

Seriously, I've said it before..I'll say it again. I am fucking sick and tired of everyone around me (with the exception of a few) being so damn negative all the time! Get some perspective!! People are fleeing their homes right now so they don't lose their lives. At least we learned something from the New Orleans tragedy. But have we? Do you (yes, I'm pointing fingers now-not to any of you that read this, though) really have it SO bad? Do you have a roof over your head, your health, people that love you and food to eat? YES! Are you one of those people you see everyday on the side of the road seeking handouts? So what if we're flat broke and working our asses off to pay bills! That's life. Everyone does it. We get our bills paid don't we?! Calm down. You live in a wonderful world full of interesting and wonderful people. There is so much for you and all you do is complain! Get over it! I know I'm supposed to be the sympathetic one, here...but a guy can only take so much before his own spirit is broken..and let me tell you buddy..you're braking it. Homo don't play that! Grrrrr....be happy! BE HAPPY!! Life is cool! Don't be a party pooper.

Oh well...

2005-09-22T09:15:00.000-07:00

So here I am, at home, doing absolutely nothing because of the following:

I am sure I missed nothing too imperitive to the future of my professional career, however I am bummed b/c I couldn't make it to my favorite class. I got the to bus stop too late to make it to another line that was running and I was out of gas in the car and with it being after 6:00 am I wasn't going to even try to find parking on or near campus.

Oh well. To those of you who did make it to class today...anything fun, interesting, boring, important happen??

:( (bummed)

How does she do it??

2005-09-21T18:10:00.000-07:00

Somehow she always manages to get me right where I'm vulnerable. Today I was slowly drifting off after work watching Oprah and she starts talking about her damn angel network and all the good work she does and wouldn't you know it, my darn right eye starts leaking onto my pillow.

She will be president one day...she will be my friend. In the words of Kat's norhtern cousin, Oprah is "so for quooot!"

Funny beer commercial...

2005-09-20T19:27:00.000-07:00

https://webspace.utexas.edu/bts287/beerbythepool.mpa?uniq=-uny9ab

Scientology is fun...

2005-09-20T18:31:00.000-07:00

http://www.liquidgeneration.com/games/cruise_scientology.asp

Blood type=motto

2005-09-20T07:21:00.000-07:00

One of my mottos also happens to be my blood type (B+). Coincidence? Idon'tthinkso! I CANNOT stand when people are so darn negative all the time. LIGHTEN UP! For real, tho.

NO POOPIE IN THE PANTS!

Ugh....but, yay!

2005-09-19T19:18:00.000-07:00

Well, tonight kind of sucked ass. When I got to class I learned quickly that everyone had prepared a reading that they all got from Galit via email that somehow I somehow managed to be lacking since I never got the damn email. I asked Galit tonight if she wouldn't mind posting all assignments to blackboard since I am always on it and she just kind of blew me off. It just seems more logical to have access to all information on a reliable forum that everyone can access at anytime rather than relying on the capricious workings of email. I suppose I'm in the minority since I was only one of a few who didn't get the email, but still, if there are obviously apparent glitches with the email system it just seems logical to use blackboard. Oh well..

On a lighter and much more devious and fun note, Kat, Monica and I sort of officially withdrew ourselves from our original network of advertising pals and started our own "agency". Woo hoo! I love people with glasses and apple computers. We're cool and they're not. We're so smart and we're gonna kick some ass!

Being alone with the don.

2005-09-17T20:45:00.000-07:00

Well, since Christopher has been away for the past two days I have really been able to get a lot done. I did quite a bit of homework and got the house all clean and spiffy. Riki and I had a nice little date tonight, too which was nice. We went to Romeo's (I had the BEST Chipotle Chicken Pasta) and then to Teo for some yummy pistachio gelato. Great night.

Tonight I'm just chilling at home with Canada. Getting some quality time in with my princess. She has been lonely since I have been gone some much lately extending my social network and having too much fun. :) I love new friends and old ones.